Down in the Valley

 It's a cold rainy day.  I don't like cold rainy days. I didn't understand what the pastor preached about today. That in itself I guess is going to happen on occasion but it makes me feel unsettled. Nobody else is home but my daughter. I always feel stress when it's just me and her. I guess because she is beyond the age of just doing what I ask because I asked her. So, it often feels like she is the adult and I am the child. I spent some time online this afternoon. The internet has become my companion. Today I am feeling the lonliness of  that. I guess to put it simply. Today is not a good day to be me. I don't feel like I have a firm grasp on anything. The only love that I can "see" that exists for me right now is that my dog and cat love me. I know that's more than some people have. I know God loves me. Sometimes, especially on days like today, I wish He would just let the angel blow that trumpet and take me Home..