it has been almost 14 months since I blogged!

 Wow...so much has happened in those 14 months! I remember at the end of 2010 dreading the end of the year because the 10 would become 11 and since 2010 wasn't a bad year as far as struggling financially I attributed it to even numbers being better than odd...LOL BUT I have to say 2011 has been a good year as far as self improvement. The first 6 months of the year I pretty much just coasted..but on June 13 I began doing things independently that I hadn't done in years. I had become convinced that I couldn't. I was "too old" or "too fat". Well, on the morning of June 13 something happened. I got mad. I decided that I was not going to spend my life depending on people. I wasn't sure if I was gonna be able to do stuff but looking back on the last 5 months I realize I didn't stop to think about it. I didn't give myself the opportunity to talk myself out of it. I just did it. I can get dressed and undressed. I can go to the bathroom. I can make the bed. I can take the dog out. I can get in the shower. I can do my hair. I can get in and out of my house on my own. I am adept at using the handicapped van for transportation. I am pretty much physically independent and 1 of the best perks of all this physical independence is I am losing weight! 18 more pounds and I will be happy.  
 There's still some things I need to work on. Such as, broadening my horizons with cooking. I mean, I am great with the microwave but I think I want to tackle the Crock Pot LOL 2011 has been a year where I have found old friends, made new friends, and gotten comfortable in friendships that for years didn't think I deserved. I spent alot of years riding coat tails but I now realize there comes a time, for everyone, when it is time to grow up. 
 I have learned alot. I have learned God loves me. I have learned and accepted that everything happens for a reason. I have learned that there are things about me that I think are really cool. I have learned and accepted that everything happens for a reason. I have learned that it's easy to tell someone else how to get out of a paper bag but not so easy to follow that advice. I have learned that tomorrow is another day and what I didn't get right today I can re-do again tomorrow. God will be there, my friends will be there, and I will be there with new strength from finally learning how to acknowledge and appreciate myself.